They say that visualization can help with achieving your goals. Many famous athletes use visualization to help them compete. They all claim it helps. Some of them live by it. Unfortunately for me, when I close my eyes I can’t see him. He remains a mystery. No matter how hard I try I can not visualize what I will look like at my goal weight.
I think the problem is because I have no frame of reference. I have never been at “normal” weight. I have always been heavy, always. Sure there was a time when I was better proportioned. When I was younger I carried my weight a bit better but I was still overweight. It was an illusion and this time I don’t want tricks. No smoke and mirrors, just healthy.
It is kind of hard to march towards a goal you can’t see. It is a bit like being lost in the desert with no landmarks to guide your way. When you are lost and don’t know the way, sometimes all you have is faith. That is what is keeping me moving right now, Faith.
I have faith that if I keep pushing forward I will get where I am going. I have faith that if I control what I am feeding my body, health will come. I have faith that if I get up every day, push play and do the work I will become him. I have faith that Dallas is strong enough to help pull me through the doubt even though we have never met nor spoken to one another. I have faith that I will some day be warrior of the month as well as warrior of the quarter.
I can’t visualize the man I am trying to become. I can’t imagine what he looks like. I can’t imagine how he feels doing everyday ordinary things. I can’t imagine what it feels like to do a pull up. Here is the secret: I don’t have to. All I have to do is keep living life at 90% and soon enough I will know everything about him I ever wanted to know.
Even though I can’t visualize him I do know something about him.
He has wrist dimples. Wrist dimples?
That’s right he has wrist dimples. He has these little depressions (dimples) on his wrist. It turns out that when you lose a bit of body fat you start to notice all these little things about yourself that you may have never noticed before. I have wrist dimples, they were once packed with fat, now…not so much.
Oh and he has muscle striation in his forearms. His forearms are going to be shredded. I know this because I can see muscle definition in my forearms that I didn’t know was possible.
Okay you caught me.
I seen them in the mirror when I was brushing my teeth. Now I have to make sure they are still there every time I am near the bathroom mirror. Corny I know, but I am still amazed.
I may not be able to visualize the end result but I do take note of all the small changes happening while I get there. From the elbows down I am one sexy bastard! Of course sometimes I feel like things are moving too slow. Day 60 is rapidly approaching and while I have made progress, I have not seen dramatic numbers on the scale.
Every few days or so I notice something small. I notice some small change in my body or I am able to improve some small thing in my workout. I guess for me it will be all about the small changes. Someday all those small changes will add up.